AGONY OF BEING OUT OF DOMAIN

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Last few days have rattled my existence, innocence and confidence in the college. They make me think as if even I was being into NIT. For the first time in last 4 years I spent entire day of fiesta in college. In the dismay for enjoying the last fiesta to the fullest. Till now I have been reclusive and enjoyed myself in seclusion.

The very first instance happened long agoduring VT when I was mistaken as a guy from different college by a companion from the same college. That was after spending 3 years of my academic career.  Though no regrets, even I faced the same problem with her.

This time the frustration was even more as I was in the final year. And still out of domain of my batch. The instance was of CC where our most controversial TAP member with contradictory views on every single discussion asked me.

WHETHER I WAS FROM THIS COLLEGE?????????

 And all my nerve got numbed, paralyzed on hearing this. I felt like killing him at such humiliation. However i controlled my emotions and thought for a while that if I pursue such act then I would have to murder at least 1/5^th of entire batch. 

(I say least as I expect the same from larger chunk of my batch). 

It was better to kill myself.  The pain of being unknown took me almost 48 hours to recover from such humiliation., frustation This was the last thing expected by me in final year of college life. (irritated....errrrrrrrr...)

Though being introvert, bashful, diffident, reticent of my feelings over the years. I was typically self-effacing as I spent my entire weekends at home rather than college. Even the days spent at college were confined to my room rather than at public places like PMG, NIT Store , AD buil..   etccc. This didn’t imply that I was so much out of domain even in last year to my own batch mates. It was beyond my purview to get noticeable in college.

I never tried to and was satisfied with my 0 public appearances.

But never expected this even in my wildest dream.


What should I call them friends or foes? They are working beyond my willing and using every single opportunity to tarnish my innocent persona. I have always been inhibited by my fellow mates. However there has been a sudden surge in my number of admirers. Working together in accordance to their will. ( working for ???????) I never wanted to be in limelight for allegations of my friends. Though they should enjoy themselves to the fullest and so I have no regrets. Except in the process that no one should get hurt for their deeds. I seriously apologize on my behalf if someone really got hurt and gnawed by that. Their miscalculation, misjudgements lead to arrival of such circumstances.

Finally I had been in solitude for long and would seriously hope that never does such circumstance arrive again in the next few months to come.

THOUGH I AM READY FOR THE WORST SCENARIO. :P:P:P